Defense (draft)

If somebody asks me why I carry a bag around with items to protect myself with a stunguns batons of pepper spray jabbing things knives and done with my CCW and then I tell them because I've been assaulted four times in my life once from my own fleshing blood aunt whom had a psychotic break episode to physically hit my self and my mother. four years ago once by two black girls in the IKEA parking lot in West sac two weeks before my aunt assaulted me once about two months ago from a white and black girl at the ghetto Walmart on Folsom boulevard and then my psycho ex-boyfriend many of assault and death threats over the course of months is now in jail for six months because I pressed charges and you wonder why I carry things to protect myself and you say wow you have a positive outlook on life no it has nothing to do with that there are idiots out there and there are people like all those who have nothing to lose and don't care what they do and I value myself and my self-worth and protect myself and they could care less so I'm not going to be a victim I refuse to and I will fight back with everything I have and they will lose not me I will never be a victim again do any kind of assault or violence or a victim of domestic violence in a relationship again I now have all the tools and resources that nobody wants to come against me for any reason because they will lose.

Direct Selling Experience -Rough Draft

Yea I've been in direct selling for 13 years I started with Mary Kay then to avon to passion parties Back to avon Join body by vi Back to passion parties Joined it works as a customer Joined jamberrys on the ground floor Joined my thirty one and Le-vel in the same month Joined YOUNIQUE when they first started ground floor Did damsel in defense #5000 Came back to it works and started as a distributor

New Things To Come

As I've been going through so much lately health wise I took time to reflect back on the past 6 years of my life and the past decade of my entire 20s. I've decided to start writing in my blog everyday to reflect back and write about everything I've gone through to help my journey of getting through it and being a goal digger. My end result is to turn all of these into a mini book, hoping to help others whom have experienced what I have. If I can inspire one person that is what I'm going for, to help others.

5 Year Plan

Child
Husband
House
New Car
Career
401 K Retirement Plan
Own Business
New Friends


Cut Down On Clutter

Let Things Go (including people)

Kick out the negative

Be healthy and fit

2011 New Year's Resolution

2011 New Year's Resolution

Finish & Graduate College

Clean Room
-get rid of clothes that I don't wear or fit
-hang pictures
-clear carpet
Give lots of my clutter away

Clear out storage unit

Have $20,000 in the bank cash

Consolidate debt

Promote and get my business rolling

Lose 40lbs to be 130

Go to Church

Go sky diving

Go white water rafting

Go To Superbike School

Take a trip to Canada with my new passport

Pack a bag, go to airport & take a southwest plane somewhere

Go to the gym

Tan & Spray Tan

Body Wraps

Get facials, massages, and hair done

Get into a happy healthy relationship

Get healthier

Possibly get a job


Things To Remember:

MAKE AN APPOINTMENT WITH YOURSELF

MAKE YOURSELF A PRIORITY

TELL THINGS ON YOUR MIND OTHERWISE OTHERS WONT KNOW

DON'T HOLD THINGS IN

Saying No isn't selfish, it's self-preserving

Relationships are mirrors.
Those you love and those you dislike,
are both mirrors of yourself.
So don't try to correct your reflection.
Instead of looking for the right person,
BECOME THE RIGHT PERSON.

Saw it, wanted it, threw a fit & got it

Yes it's fast no you can't ride it

I know I know....license and registration

Holiday - The 4th

So much for a holiday.

Soar throat, can't be out in the heat because of hot flashes. Doctors still haven't called or prescribed medicine. Just been suffering for a few weeks now. I really hate paying for crap Kaiser service. So much for being a 26+ year customer, that gets you no where.

Sitting alone in my room on 4th of July with my dogs. How fun is this.

Although I can remember a year ago wasn't any better. Actually it was just the start of my end where I am at now. Lucky me.

I can really say how do some people make it in the world at their "job" because most of them are so stupid they can't do their job anyway. Is it that hard or are they just that stupid???? Why is it too that supervisors know nothing yet they are in that position?

Frustrated with all the processes.

Workers Comp Still -

-appealing to the appeal board and have to go to court for that
-been a year since filing and nothing but then again they don't want to be liable

Harassment/Discrimination -

-about to go to court at the end of the month to see if I am amused at Devry's offer

School Devry -

-still don't have official evaluation
-still waiting for ADA accommodations
-still waiting for an admitting response from dean marcela
-had to take a class I already took
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Work Devry -

-haven't heard from them in a month or actually more. sent in off sick still but the real last thing was the threatening to be fired letter in the mail if i didn't come back in may 2010. (screw it, I don't want to work for a company that treats people like dirt and doesn't take responsibility for it.)

Kaiser -

-negligent treatment from many doctors and all my member complaints because no one can figure out the right medicines nor take responsibility it my overall health. politics are so ugly but very obvious.

My question is when will all this get settled and come to an end? No wonder I still have accumulated stress. The list keeps piling up. I could just quit it all but should I have to quit and let them get away with it, or suffer and prove to them that them (Devry) needs to take responsibility for their employees treating others like dirt and persuading them to quit like it's not their fault. For now pushing on with what strength I have and they will pay for all I have suffered. People will know what kind of company they are. That I will make sure of.

Next 5 years???

Well over the past few years I did think my life was in a different direction. I was in school, had a boyfriend, starting a career and all the sudden just as the wind blows it changes in a heart beat. You push school back because of the career. You lose the career because of health issues and finally because you fall out of love and into deep debt of finances you end up in lawsuits with your ex owing you lots of money he doesn't have.

My world as I knew it completely fell to the ground last year about the middle of the year. Nothing was as it seemed and this was all a year after the above happened. I thought that was a down point but nothing in comparision to what was coming a head. I had such medical issues of stress that I couldn't even drive, leave my room, and my doctors had me on up to 9 medications at one point their ignorance didn't even come into play that they were counteracting with one another. It seemed as though it was fight after fight which made my stress even more aggravated and sicker.

All I have to say is thank god for family. Without my parents I wouldn't have been able to make it through any of it. They not old stood by my side and picked me back up but stood up for me and took the reigns.

Slowly as I get my life together one step at a time. I returned to school, volunteer a little and spend most of my times with my comforting animals and some close family. Compared to where I was it's progress.

I see myself in 5 years hopefully in an entirely new career, new path of life and possibly a love interest. I had so many in the past (not like that) but I never concentrated on myself. I gave till I had nothing to give. Now my life is about me, what I want in my life, and what I want to accomplish with my life, because after all it's my life and I get to chose where I drive the car or motorcycle. LOL. I use to ride motorcycles. Actually I was even president of a woman's motorcycle club for a year but those were back in my adrenaline junkie days. I slowly have a ride here and there when I get the mind set up to it but nothing like before ripping through the hills or racing down the 1/4 at 120mph when I was 23. Not that 26 now is much old but I kind of found myself over the past year when hitting rock bottom.

I will say though I wish that on no one and admire those most who know what they want in life/love/career and wish them luck to go get it.